Every once in awhile it sucks.

So, yeah, today kinda blew chunks. See, first, I got up up to bring my kitty to the vet. I've just paid some bills so I'm on a limited budget, but I had to get the kitty in: her meds are running out, and quite honestly, i don't know if she'll live without them. So, I bring her in. But, even though I told the Vet about my limited budget, the bill comes back more than double what I had said I could afford.  In the past they had offered various methods of payment. Not now. Now it's cash, right now, pay up sucker! And a sucker I am, because it was 3 times the amount it had cost for the same service as 6 months ago.

This set a few things in motion. See, I've pretty much been living for the chance to escape. To go on a vacation, however brief. That chance is evaporating before me. I no longer can afford to leave my soul-crushing job for even a day.

Then came the next hammer blow. My company recently relocated. Trying to be a good co-worker, I had been taking up the slack for everyone else, and even delivered everyone's time sheets off to the place where they're processed, after hours, without asking for compensation. I did deliver everyone's time sheet, except mine. I forgot it, and , today, found it in my coat pocket. Why? Because I've had too much on my plate, I guess, but maybe because I'm an idiot. This means my pay that I desperately need, will be at the very least delayed.

This leaves me a bit screwed. I've got some kinda important bills due, this week. Stuff I cannot defer. Yeah, I'm probably gonna have to ask some folks for a loan. They'll make me grovel for it, too. i know. They'll also feel that it gives them the right to point out every mistake I ever made.

Then, just when I had resigned myself to staying in for the next....month, my internet and cable TV just died. The best part: they died when I sat at the family computer. They'd worked all day for other members of my family. Nope, it dies right when I get my turn.

Now, obviously, it's working now. Here's hoping that's a sign of things to come.

I ain't asking for anyone's pity. I wouldn't accept it, if it was given. I'm a very tough cookie, and i know I'll be OK. Seriously, people hate me for how stone faced and unyielding I can be. But, I know that's what it takes for me to survive my own stupidity, and my own bad luck. I've got to draw upon the stoicism of my forefathers just to keep breathing. It's going to take a lot of that, if I'm going to make it back to daylight. Just you watch, though. I'll do it. Even if every once in awhile it sucks...