You think you know me?
I suppose this'll really confuse you, but I can't help that.
You might think that my last post was me, being a conservative. You'd be wrong. It comes from years upon years of being what folks would call a "punk".
See, I learned early on that the so-called "American Dream" was a nightmare. Owning your own house, wife, two kids, and a dog named spot just wasn't what I would strive for. Not like that. I felt that we have a right to work, and that they owe us a living, not that they owe us a particular life. I didn't ever believe that I could just walk up to a company, and get a high paying job, and have some model just attach herself to me, and then, bloodlessly, effortlessly, two years later, we'd have two perfect children, and a perfect suburban home to raise them in. Even if I thought such a thing were possible, I wouldn't want it. I wanted a job that meant something to me, even if it didn't make tons of money. I wanted a woman who was her own person, yet wanted to be in my life, as well, even if that meant neither of us lived up to some cockamamie ideal. If we had kids (and that's a big if) I expected struggle, and work. I wanted simply a place to rest and feel secure, whether that was what you'd call a home, or not.
I believed what I saw on TV was a lie. I believed that the religion I heard on that TV was a perversion. I believed that my government was not looking out for me, but was looking out for itself. I wasn't born cynical, but I didn't shirk from cynicism, either.
I believed that there is, and remains to be a better way to live than to by simply received 'truth'. For that belief, I was told that I was wrong. I was called a "punk" which still remains an insult. I was ostracized, and I was put down, and I was beat up. People called me a "commie" and they called me a "fag". So, it's funny to me, now that I have been borne out, that these same people would turn around and call me the establishment. It's a sweet irony that my way led to me having a decent amount of money, a wife, a kid, and a house in the suburbs (including 4 cats).
I still believe that it's in your best interest to question authority. I believe it's in your best interest to understand pain. I believe that it's better to find your own truth, rather than to accept what others say. I believe it's better to stand alone on what you cannot deny, rather than to blend in based upon the denial of yourself.
I also believe that babylon should die its natural death. If babylon will believe its lies to be truth, then, it should die a liar's death.
